The Return of Sleep Paralysis

Sleep Paralysis Imagery

A while ago, I had written a poem about a sleep condition that I have on and off, sleep paralysis - a sensation where you feel like you are awake, and there is something or someone in the room with you that you fear, but your body and voice is paralyzed, so you are unable to escape or defend yourself. It has to do with the how the brain paralyzes your body while you are dreaming to prevent you from physically acting out your dreams, but sometimes doesn't release the paralysis when you are … [Read more...]

Dreaming of Birds


Recently, I have had two very memorable dreams about birds. The first dream, a few weeks ago, I had this bird in my hand that I thought was dead. But then, it came to life again. Just as I was feeling the joy that my little bird was alive, it fell out of my hand into a storm drain in a parking lot. I was left feeling sad because I did not know if the bird would have survived the fall, and if it did, could it get out. If not, I knew it would starve to death and die in the drain.The next … [Read more...]

The Sweetest Drug

Love is a drug It comes in many forms As there are varieties Of potential loversYou begin feeling strong That you do not need it Until you get a taste By choice or by accidentOnce you have the penchant The craving will begin It weakens in time only if You can stop savoring itBut each time you do The need, the desire for it Grows stronger and begins To drive you out of your mindIt makes you ecstatic When you know you have it It makes you almost crazy When you stand to lose itThe … [Read more...]

More Films Provoking Profound Questions

In continuation of What Films Provoke Profound Questions, I am adding the following movies:InvasionThis quote from the movie really sums it up: "All I am saying is that civilization crumbles whenever we need it most. In the right situation, we are all capable of the most terrible crimes. To imagine a world where this was not so, where every crisis did not result in new atrocities, where every newspaper is not full of war and violence. Well, this is to imagine a world where human beings cease to … [Read more...]

Warm and Fuzzy Feeling Dreams

Last night, I dreamt that my fiancé and I were going to start up our own hospital. We only had four beds available, and we wanted to take four patients out of a nearby facility. The lady we were dealing with wanted us to take all six of her patients, two of which we did not want. One of the patients, who was being neglected, was this Japanese man with a mangled face and no legs. Everyone was ignoring him, but I looked at him and smiled. He looked back at me and smiled as well, which left … [Read more...]

FBI Flamethrowers

A few nights ago, I dreamt that the FBI came to my apartment complex to question the residents about something - I am not sure what anymore. Once they finished questioning everyone, two of them, wearing Joker-like masks, pulled out flamethrowers and started burning the apartment buildings. My first thought was to check on my mom who lived in the back of the complex. When my fiancé and I ran back to her building, she was standing by her car, drugged out of her mind. I asked her where her … [Read more...]

What Films Provoke Profound Questions?

Previously, I hit on the topic, using the Dark Knight, of movies that challenge your morals and values. The ones that make you question why you relate to or despise decisions that a character made based on your own beliefs, and how you would respond in the same scenarios. Then this weekend, I thought of some more movies that also have the same effect. Thought Provoking FilmsThe Brave OneWhat is so wrong with a person who takes out the criminal element? If this person knows the criminal is … [Read more...]

The Perfect Wedding Dress

Last night, I dreamt about my upcoming nuptials. Typically, my dreams are about being at a wedding, but I do not think I have ever been the bride before now. I was wearing the perfect dress: a strapless ballgown with soft, silky embroidery. The bottom was poofy, but not obnoxiously so. The wedding itself was outdoors, in a beautiful but maze-like garden. It was a bit strange in the sense that everyone was having to walk in a line towards the area where the minister was. I was somewhere in … [Read more...]

Taken but Looking, and Breaking the Trust Factor

I was recently reading a friend's blog where he was posting online conversation between himself and a female friend. Long story short, she was seeing someone she met on an online dating service, and she thought things were going really well, but then found out he had put his profile back up on the site. Needless to say, she was confused and discouraged. The subject hit a nerve with me, as I have been in a committed relationship where this happened. There is no harm in online, chit chat … [Read more...]

Emotional Residue from Dreams

This morning, I woke up feeling particularly snarky. In recent months, with exception to times I was sick, I have always woke up in a blissfully sunny mood, but not today. And I am sure it is from what I like to call emotional residue from a dream I had. The fact that I cannot remember the details of the dream just adds to my snarkiness, although I am certain that it involved a massive fight with my ex. I was aware early on in the morning that something was out of balance, but it was not … [Read more...]