Purpose

For a vast amount of my life, I believed that many of the thoughts and feelings I experienced were unlike those of any other. Of course I realize everyone is unique, but I felt that “normal” people’s minds did not work the way mine did, and I assumed it was a bad thing. Once I gained more confidence, and accepted the things inside me as being perfectly acceptable, I wanted to begin sharing everything – the beauty, happiness, darkness, etc. with everyone, in hopes that someone else out there may relate, and not feel so alone. I want this blog to represent my diversity, in respect to my interests, hobbies and talents, as well as my modes of expression, from serious to relaxed to humorous.

I also hope, through postings about discoveries, to shed some light on the artistic temperament, and how it ties directly to a lot of unruly emotions that some people feel. I believe that many people have artistic tendencies that, when they are not exercised, create anything from mild to excruciating emotions – depression, anxiety, anger, etc. If those people could find a method to express it, whether by drawing, writing (whether as poetry, fiction, screenplays, or stream-of-conscious journals) photography, singing, or bringing amusement to others, they might feel less tense, more in tune with themselves and in control of their feelings.

I think a lot of these types of people have been discouraged from expressing themselves by others who misguidedly think their works are too dark, too simple, etc. For example, I have been told by some that my poetry has no formal style, is non-rhythmic, etc., but I have also been told that they like my straightforward, heart-on-the-sleeve writing style as they are able to relate to it somehow, or at least understand where it is coming from, as opposed to writing styles that are too metaphorical or symbolic. The point to artistic expression is the personal nature of it. Even if it is something that cannot be shared, it is still very important to utilize the gift if it is possessed.

I write this, partly from my own personal experience and of those I have known. For me, I realized, many years ago, that if I was able to just start writing, I was able to not only release the strong emotions I was feeling, but also able to get to the subconscious root of it all. I have also known those who could put an image onto paper or canvas of their emotions, whether abstractly or realistically; those who could find solace in taking photos of peaceful scenes to relax them, or beautiful ones that reminded them that there was much beauty in their world; those who could put the fantasies or nightmares that tormented or plagued them into fictional works or have them acted out in plays; and those who shined as they brought happiness to others through humor, being comforted in the fact that they are able to give to others what they have not yet found for themselves – moments of pure amusement and joy.

Overall, I hope that more people can discover ways of bringing peace to themselves. Instead of fearing the times when their emotions are running amok, they could know ahead of time ways to direct those feelings towards something positive.